Tuesday, August 31, 2010

where did that come from?

after sleeping a whole lot yesterday, i finally took a shower around 8pm. we had to go to walmart to get dryer sheets. i'd rather not go anywhere but had to go. i was so tired. long week with my foot. the last couple of days it has felt a lot better since i kept the brace on...go figure :). i thought i would do a little digital scrapbooking but at first it wasn't coming along then bam...i produced these:
love when it just comes to meet out of no where like that.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

the dude

i tell ya. he is going to be a heartbreaker with that grin and those eyes!
even with a runny nose, caused by teething, he is still a happy little man. his first tooth is in but barely. you can feel it but can hardly see it. we think he is working on the one next to it. lots of slobbering going on. he is just a happy, joyful baby. i joke that it was the lexapro that i took while i was pregnant with him. but i know it is was god that made him and blessed him to be the most beautiful, joyful baby we prayed for.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

celebrate life

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

another look at this face

i was editing some photos of brandon and colby and saw the few that i took of liam. yeah....he just makes me smile!
i would love to do this for a living but can't in this area. there are so many photographers right now, i would have to think of something that no one else does and i can't think of one thing they don't do. so for now i will just focus on my little man and enjoy that.

and he is finally saying "mom." insert big cheesey mommy smile!

Monday, August 23, 2010

love this face

even if it is covered in food!
frame by andie smith designs.

a new week and a new blog post at...

andie smith designs!

Sunday, August 22, 2010


oh how i have missed my daily routines. i get up in the morning. sometimes before liam. go to facebook and twitter. when he wakes up, change him, feed him. we have our me time. my favorite time! last week we went nonstop from wed to sun. up at 9'ish and nonstop till we got home at midnight. i was so drained. with no routine and my foot hurting....found out it is tendenitis....i have been off all week. tired. dragged down. out of breath. blah.

tonight after we got back from my parents and walmart, i fed the dude then layed him on the floor to play. eric on his computer and me on mine...life was back to normal and it felt great. it was like i could breath again!

bring on monday...i'm ready!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

this is why i NEED a canon rebel

to get shots like this. i would never need to go to a professional again. with the fast shutter speed i can get these great smiles he produces. and so much more!!! its would be a great investment!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

very sad

i saw this article in a panic attack email group that i am in. a lady so fearful she stayed in her car at a hospital for months. no one understands the fears we go through. this story is heartwrenching.
lady stuck in car.

teeth, feet and trees

teeth. well liam had a tooth. yes, had. well you can feel the top of it but it went in a little. it was only out a tad bit but it went back in some. so hopefully sometime soon it will pop up and stay. poor little man has a runny nose from it.

feet. my right foot is really sore. almost went to urgent care to have it checked. i think what the deal is, is that i am walking on the right side of my right foot. there is a callious on my big toe. it is sore so i walk weird. now i am in a ton of pain and not a happy camper. i do need new shoes badly. hopefully this week we can get some.

trees. had a storm come through last night and knock a huge limb onto the jeep. thank god there was no damage.

now off to relax my foot.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

a little designing

i did 2 articles this week for andie smith designs. love her stuff and what she has to offer for photographers! i can't wait till it is cooler out so i can get out and take more pictures. man, i wish i had a canon rebel to get good shots of liam. a point and shoot just doesn't cut it for that kid! :)
here are the links to the two articles: Jazz Up Your Storyboards and Counting The Days, A Mini Album.

and is this good that the dude is wanting my monster?

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

can't wait

can't wait for the heat to stop so i can: go on walks with the dude. sit on a blanket outside and play with him. clean off the porch (way too hot to clean outside!). take pictures outside. go to the park. go to work without my hair falling down from sweat. i am so ready for fall!

still no tooth. he hasn't woke up yet for me to check this morning. so there may be one. who knows. i can't wait for it to come in!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

a few cool pictures

1. Typography / fine art / texture / graffiti / photography / design, 2. Railroad / texture / abstract / tracks / puddles / design / background / photography, 3. Retro / vintage / typography / design / background / texture / lettering / type / photography, 4. Good design is felt, 5. (2010) Agenda Cover Design, 6. Domo at the Art Walk L.A, 7. high heels, flowerpower and luv... [Retro Pink 70's], 8. TRP/FGR: Retro 17 Walkabout, 9. Vintage retro crayon

first birthday party

on the 7th we went to luke's first birthday party. luke is another little man that julie watches. liam had a great time.
he had no idea he had a hat on. he kept it all till the party was over.

of course he thought the horn was for eating, not blowing.

eric and i decided we will need to rent a place for liam's first birthday. our house is way too small for all the people that will probably be coming. it will be a great event!

and it's up!

my first article for andie smith designs! counting the days, a mini album. andie has some great designs for scrapbooking and for photography! i am so excited to be a part of her team.

in other news. liam still has no teeth. there is a big bump on the lower gums. hopefully soon that tooth will pop through and we will have us a tooth! i can't wait to see him with teeth. little man is so adorable all gummy but the dude needs some teeth!

so that is it for right now. off to read a mazazine. oh...i did read a great book by marian keyes, the brightest start in the sky. awesome read. i got 2 more of her books at the library to read. i think i found a new author!

Saturday, August 07, 2010

the dude and me

i don't have very many pictures of me and liam. i try to take them when we are relaxing in bed. he is play and i am reading. i don't have many with him and eric either. that will have to change.

he has a bump on his lower right mouth. hopefully this will result in a tooth soon. poor man has been a little fussy the last couple of days because of teething.

today we are going to luke's first birthday party. luke is another baby at daycare. fun for all us of us!

i bought two magazines, parents and working mother. makes me feel a bit grown up buying these. and more important....a mother. scrapbook magazines have been replaced by parenting and motherhood....awesome feeling! it's the little things in life.

Thursday, August 05, 2010

very thankful

i woke up at 7:40am with what i am about to write on my mind. things have changed so much for me in the last 2 years. not a lot of people know that i was married for 16 years. over 10 years of it i spent unhappy. totally unhappy. why not get out? not so easy to do when you have panic attacks, depression and agoraphobia. while i won't go into the details of why i stayed and why i was unhappy, none of that is important now the past is the past, i did learn a lot about myself in those years. it did make me stronger. the bold move to move on with my life lead me to much more than i even imagined. i never though happiness would come to me. i never though i would be having a 7 month old sleeping in the next room. i never thought i would find the man i love with all my heart and soul. in the last 2 years life has become amazing and the people i am going to mention have played a part in that role. so much of a part that i need to write about how great god is to give me friends that have made a difference in my life.

and no particular order...here we go!

i'll start off with my parents. i thank them so much for all they do for me. how they have supported me and been there with me through everything. i prayed that i could give them a grandchild before i was 40...did it 2 years before. :)

eric. god where do i start? i never in my life thought i would find someone that loves me the way he does. how he makes me laugh when i am down. his goal is to make me smile and laugh each day. he takes good care of liam. he let's me have my me time when i really need it. words can not describe how much he has changed me. i feel safe around him. i feel i can be me around him. i waited a long time for him. i cherish each day we have together.

eric's parents, rob and laura. they understand my anxiety issues and don't judge me. that is the most important thing to me. they help us so much. they love me unconditionally. they are the best in-laws.

heather, eric's sister. she is so loving. she is a great mom and raised two wonderful little girls.

aimee. we were in ballet at age 5 or 6. didn't really get to know each other till 4th grade. been friends since. i could never repay her for all she has done to help me. she sent me a letter of encouragement when i was going through the "i don't know if i am doing this mommy thing right" ordeal. from prom, taco bell....we may not have stayed in constant touch like we do now via twitter...but we know we are there for each other.

carla. another friendship started in 4th grade. this woman can make me laugh. i tell ya she is a gem. we lost touch but carla found me on myspace and after 20 years we met up again. her, aimee and i. i am so lucky she is in my life. her sense of humor and wit...she rocks! even if she is team edward. lol...just kidding.

brandon. guncle brandon as liam would call him. i cut up with him everytime we are around each other. unless he comes in while i am working. i try to stay in a professional manner at work. *sarcasim at its finest* smart and always has the last word, the man is the best. he is helping me with the wedding. he is always there for you when you need a friend. i hope that one day he and colby will be united in marriage.

julie. she takes care of my little man when i am at work. she teaches him. she is a great person with a huge heart. i am at ease at work knowing liam is in safe hands.

god not only blessed me with a great guy but also got me out of taco station and into a better job. though i miss that place from time to time, i am so glad for the change, which was for the better. i made so many new friends at walmart. each has a place in my life.

alex...now alex isn't from walmart but from taco station. i have known her for over 10 years. though she used to annoy the heck out of me....she gets a little windy from time to time....she is another person that was always there for me when i needed it. she is now in florida. she'll be back next month to meet my son. i can't wait to see her. i miss her so much!

the apparel gals....
bethanny. she doesn't work there any more but when i first started and for about 6 months or so, she was the only one that would talk to me. there is no worse feeling this being in a new job and no one around you giving you the time of day. she is the reason why i became a sponsor. i want people that come into our dept to feel welcome. (no, the first one i sponsored does not count, people. she was only a test. that is a whole new blog post....)

stephanie. the only one in our dept that is a mom. i go to her often. "is this ok to be doing...." "am i doing this right." "is it normal to...." i am so thankful i have someone to run to, to make sure that i am doing this mother thing ok. we share two common interests....scrapbooking and pop. :)

emily. when she first started we clicked. sometimes there are people that you just connect with from the start. i am shy when i first get to know you. (just wait till i open up) but with her i wasn't. i was able to come back with smart remarks and she took them in stride. awesome!

tiffany. i miss working with her. we don't work together as much as we used to. we can laugh at the smallest things. she knows to come get me when something would make me roll my eyes and laugh.

brenda. like a little sister. i feel bad to this day for yelling at her for not being in her dept. that day i thought it was pms....no i was pg and didn't know it. she nice to everyone and doesn't say a bad thing about anyone.

ashley. i'm not sure when she is upset or playing. but as she says "if i am mean to you that means i like you." she is sweet, kind and will have my back if anything should happen.

phyllis. motherly advice. that's the first thing i think of when i thought of what would i write. she watches out for all of us.

dorothy. the woman has and attitude...well not that bad of one but sometimes.... she is warm hearted. she is sweet and always says hello.

elizabeth. i have never met someone at her age that cusses like a sailor. omg i laugh when i come in and she has had a bad day. not because she had a bad day but the words that come out of her mouth. i am sure that will be me when i am her age. positive!

nolene. sweet little nolene. the grandmother of us all. funny. she is adorable!

kristin. oh we go wayyyy back. i worked with her at taco station. many a times she saw me at my worse, pms is not a happy thing and neither are anger issues. she is the sweetest person i know. she is always there for you. she listens and doesn't judge. has good advice and so darn smart! i love her to pieces!

and others at walmart.

tracy. she is a riot. i love to hear her stories. i hope she doesn't move to kc. after hearing about dead bodies laying in the road...she is better off in se kansas where meth labs are and not guys with guns in cars. just sayin.

scott. the only person i can talk nascar with. i'm sure there are others but we like to give each other crap over our drivers. he is a jimmie fan and i forgive him for that. not everyone can see a champion in someone. rofl.

bobbi. another one that gives good advice. always says hello. friendly.

judy. so friendly and nice. has to give liam a kiss when she sees him. she's awesome.

frances. though she isn't there now, i respected her. being a manager before at taco station, i saw why did what she did at times. i respected that. some people questioned it. but i always know a good maganger when i see them and how they work.

other members of mgt. tarl. the guy loves weird al and so when i hear a weird al song i think of tarl. he is friendly and always says hi. so does frank and kraig. they always say my name and hello.

i am wondering if i left anyone out. with my memory i am sure i am. these people have made a difference in my life with being who they are. you never know who you will come in contact with in life. you can learn from everyone and you can also teach. you don't have to teach anything more than kindness. be friendly and you will be rewarded with love and kindness back. people remember you when you've made a difference in their life. i hope people remember me. the ones i worked with over the years. there are some i will never forget and i wonder where they are today.

i thank god for changing my life around and finally making me happy. life is so much better when you love life. when you aren't crying in your own home because your are lonly. when you wake up each morning next to the man of your dreams. when you walk into the baby's room and look at this peacefull little man laying there asleep. life has never been this amazing.

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

in search for a new bathtub

the little man grew out of his baby tub so we needed to find a good upgrade. we went into this little antique mall and found the perfect tub for only $2! bargin! and the man loves it! he splashed and splashed. best two bucks i spent in a long time!
now to find some toys for him to play with in the tub.

Monday, August 02, 2010


last night we went to walmart and added stuff to our wedding registery. what fun! i have never done that before. it's like shopping and not knowing what you will get lol. i put a canon rebel on there...eric is like why??? well because it would be great to have to take pictures of the dude. i mean with a shutter speed like that i won't miss a thing! :) even though we do live together, there are a lot of things we need. new towels! pictures frames. cookware, mine is getting bad from over the years. i really don't care what we get, i just want to be married to the greatest man in the world.

and another layout!

Sunday, August 01, 2010

my tiny miracle

i was copying off pictures from eric's phone and saw this one of liam. i don't have any of him in the nursery. this made my day. the day my life changed, forever! i love you little man!

what my mother taught me (stolen from another site cause that's how i roll)


1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE

“If you’re going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished


2. My mother taught me RELIGION

“You better pray that will come out of the carpet.”

3. My mother taught me TIME TRAVEL

“If you don’t straighten up, I’m going to knock you into the middle of

next week!”

4. My mother taught me LOGIC

” Because I said so, that’s why.”

5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC

“If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you’re not going to

the store with me.”

6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT

“Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you’re in an accident .”

7. My mother taught me IRONY

“Keep crying, and I’ll give you something to cry about.”

8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS

“Shut your mouth and eat your supper.”

9. My mother taught me CONTORTIONISM

“Will you look at that dirt on the back of your neck!”

10. My mother taught me about STAMINA

“You’ll sit there until all that spinach is gone.”

11. My mother taught me WEATHER

“This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it.”

12. My mother taught me HYPOCRISY

“If I told you once, I’ve told you a million times. Don’t exaggerate!”

13. My mother taught me THE CIRCLE OF LIFE

“I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.”

14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION

“Stop acting like your father!”

15. My mother taught me: ENVY

“There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don’t have wonderful parents like you do.”

16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION

“Just wait until we get home.”

17. My mother taught me: RECEIVING

“You are going to get it when you get home!”

18. My mother taught me: MEDICAL SCIENCE

“If you don’t stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that


19. My mother taught me: ESP

“Put your sweater on; don’t you think I know when you are cold?”

20. My mother taught me: HUMOR

“When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don’t come running to me.”

21. My mother taught me: HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT

“If you don’t eat your vegetables, you’ll never grow up.”

22.My Mother taught me: Genetics

“I swear you’re just like your father.”

23. My Mother taught me about my Roots

“Shut that door behind you. Do you think you were born in a barn?”

24. My Mother taught me Wisdom

“When you get to be my age, you’ll understand.”

25. My mother taught me about Justice

“One day you’ll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you”

up way early and for no reason

except for the dogs. dottie is whining. vinny is..well being vinny. so i am up while everyone else sleeps. i tried to sleep but eric is snoring lol. so i will put up some layouts i did the last few days. i think i scrap more with digital then i did before :)
maybe today i will do some more....that is if i get some sleep. because if i don't someone's going to be a bit crabby and it isn't liam or eric ;)