so strong

this kid is so strong. you wouldn't know that two weeks ago tomorrow he had his second surgery within a weeks time. he is more independant now. he only wants your hand if there is a big step or if he is unsure about where he is walking. the scab is coming off. it is close to half off now. he is sleeping better, except for last night. he didn't each much dinner and i think he was hungry. i still worry some but it is getting better. i take his temp each day during his nap, which is anywhere from noon to 3pm. no temp at all since he has been home. thank you God! he is still taking antibiotics. i think maybe by sunday he will be done. i thought today but there is still quite a bit left.

i started therapy for my anxiety and reading "when panic attacks" by david burns. i am going to get over this. i am not going to let fear tell me what i will do each day. i'm about half way through the book and i have learned a few things that are really beneficial to my progress. i'm excited. i can't wait to go out and do things with eric and liam. God is great. i know He will help me go over this!

getting better!

liam is doing so great! i can't believe the difference in him from the first time he came home. he is back to being full of life! i love seeing it! i am still a bit worried about something going wrong but each day that goes further and further away. sometimes if he is fussy or crying because he didn't get his way, i wonder if it is more than that. ex....yesterday he was hungry but also wanted to go outside. so we put him in his stroller and we sat on the porch while he ate. that made him happy! he wants to go for walks in the stroller a lot. today we walked by the fire station. he wanted to go see the trucks but i didn't know if the firemen would be ok with it or not. as we started to walk away liam threw a fit. one guy said it was fine that he looked. he held up his arms to another fireman that showed him things. he even sat him in the truck. after that he walked around a little bit inside and then outside. finally he was ok to go. all his timing i tell ya!

work has been wonderful with food and monetary donations. we appreciate what everyone has done, especially the thoughts and prayers. i am so grateful for our family and friends.

and we're back!

what an emotional 3+ weeks it has been. liam started getting sick on august 30th. throwing up, fever, diahhrea. we thought it was a virus. we went to urgent care on the 30th. er on the 31st. dr on the 1st. and back to the er on the 2nd. he was then admitted so we could try to figure this out. monday the 5th he projectile vomited. the dr ordered a stomach xray. there was so much gas in his stomach that it was hard to see, she thought a blocked bowel. off to westley medical center he went via helicopter. watching your child leave via helicopter...hurts like hell!

this was 8pm'ish at night. the next day they did determine his appendix had ruptured. he stayed for 10 days only to go back 2 day later due to an abcess. he was in for another week before he finally came home.

i tried writing this when he came home the first time but it was too hard. i'm leaving out some because some was scarey, like water on the lungs. for a person that has agoraphobia and can't travel, having your baby 3 hours away is another hell in itself. i've never experienced so much pain in my heart in my life. i hope i can write more about that as of right now still not possible.

today he is home and doing so great. he is playing, eating, walking, all the stuff he barely did the first time he was home. i'm still a bit nervous but that will go away in time as he heals more each day, my anxiety will lessen i know.

i can not thank my parents, eric's parents, our entire families, our friends and work for supporting us and praying for us. without everyone's help we would have crumbled. i wish i could write more but i just can't right now. in time i can. life is slowly but surely getting back to normal. thank you God!!!! He did it all!