then we finally found out what we are having. i am not a patient person. this has been driving me nuts. i want to buy things and do but not a lot. more girl things actually. if it is a girl we are wanting the name payton reese. a boy liam...something. can't figure out a boys middle name yet.
i can't believe that when i found out in april that i wasn't really happy at all. i remember on mother's day we had a store meeting at work. during the meeting the manager said i was going to be a mom. i cringed. i wasn't excited. wasn't happy. i was tired. i wasn't on my meds. i felt like crap. once i started eating right and on my meds i felt a ton better. so, if i get pg again, i will stay on my meds and eat every couple of hours to keep my energy up. i didn't do that today though. only ate twice. not good. explains why i am tired but yet i am not ready for bed.
having a kid is scary. not just the birth process but paying for it afterwards. right now it is hard at times. i can't imagine what it will be like when its here. i want to be a better person so i can teach it the right way instead of a lot of things i am settled into. after 38 years here i have quite a bit experience but wish i did somethings a lot differently. i know that i will not let my kid be afraid of anything! maybe while i am teaching them that i can teach myself also.
so many things to do around the house to get ready for it. no energy on my days off. after working all week i just want to lay at home and veg. when is the nesting suppose to start cause it needs to be soon so i can get some stuff done :)
felt the baby move a lot today. one of thos days where i feel it a lot. tomorrow i am sure i won't feel it as much. that's how it goes right now. i'm just anxiously awaiting december and waiting for the next step of my life to start. here's to new beginnings!