some digital layouts

worked on these at hastings while drinking a yummy chai tea and hearing scrubs in the background. tired from yesterday. didn't realize going to the game would wear me out. sometimes i can't get used to pregnancy lol. i think "oh i can do this with no problem and not be tired." not any more. and i am sure him going nuts at the game made me somewhat tired too. not the super woman i thought i once was. and i am sure i will be getting more tired as the months go by. sleep....oh how i miss the!

stressed

been having this discharge and not sure what to think of it. books say it is normal. called the ob since it was after midnight and they say that it is normal. as long as i am not cramping, water hasn't broken, contractions, etc., then i am ok. i will call the dr on monday and make sure all is well. i did have spotting from day one, every couple of weeks, so this pinkish discharge makes me think it could be that still happening. there is a lot that happens that the drs don't know why, very annoying at times. just don't want anything to happen to this baby since i have waited so long. my body says all is well. as far as i know i haven't had any contractions. crampy, pressure feeling when i bend over or if have been working. peace of mind...that's all i long for at times.

here's a pic of eric and i at the game yesterday. we had fun even though pitt state lost. we won't even go there.

little man kicked so much during the game. he started it when the band started playing before the game. he seemed to have a great time. just wait buddy, lots of football games in your future! :) i realized at the game today that having a boy will be so much fun. i love football and nascar. if it was a girl would she? i can definately relate to boys more. it will be fun watching games and races with him. gonna be a blast!

definately showing!

yesterday we could wear jeans to work if we donated $1 to children's miracle network. i bought a pair of maternity jeans a few weeks ago and was excited to wear them. holy moly, my stomach is way out there. 6 months pregnant? more like 9 lol

that was taken in the bathroom at work with a goofy, cheesey grin.

i saw him kick on tuesday sept 15th. first time i seen it. i thought i wouldn't be able to see him kick due to being fat lol. i was so happy to see that. i can't wait till i am further along and i see a lot more. eric looked down and then he stopped. he did that he other night when i first felt him kick on top of my stomach. i had eric come in and then he stopped. didn't do it again till he had left for a while. i can't wait till eric and see him and fell him too. he will love it.

next week i have the glucose test. i'm not afraid of passing it, pretty sure i will do fine. i always look forward to going to the dr to hear the heartbeat. after that appointment i will go in 3 weeks and then start the every 2 weeks and then the once a week. we are starting birthing classes next month. this has went by so fast. i can't believe it. it seems like just yesterday i found out i was pregnant and saw the little bitty heart flashing on the screen. before i know it he will be here and all will be complete in my life. i wanted a baby before 40 and i will finally get my wish. thank you god! god does listen. he has blessed me so much in the last year and especially now. i know all will be great and go smooth because he truly is a child sent from god.

i didn't think i would ever get pregnant or well keep a pregnancy. i was beginning to think i was too old and my eggs were fried. but there was one in there that was a keeper. i am wanting to get closer to god and become a better person for liam. i want to get rid of the ways i think, the negative, and teach him to be brave, bold and strong. with god's help i know i can do this. my fear decreases each day...labor fears, not so much lol

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a little creating

finally i have produced more than a baby lately. i did 3 cards and a digital layout. after i post this i will be off to the scrapbook room to do more cards or layouts. maybe both.

here are the cards. a new stamp set by stampin up. no...i don't remember the names of the sets but they are in the new catty if that helps lol.

have today off so i am chilling and relaxing at the computer. eric is playing the new batman game. dogs are asleep. crazy days off this week. hope i get some rest at some point. can't wait till the schedule is back to normal. liam thinks there is a trampoline in my stomach. don't know what he was bouncing off of but it felt like he was bouncing back and forth from something. wasn't my bladder or i would have peed lol.
peace!

time is flying by

wow, it is almost the middle of september and what have we done to get the house ready? not one thing. i am getting some energy back but who knows how long it will stay. i want all the carpets up in the house. i don't care what the floors look like i want them up. after years of having pets the carpets need to go. hopefully by the time he starts crawling, which is a ways away since he isn't here till december, we will have wood floors down.

my parents got us the precious planet playard at walmart. the theme is precious planet for the little guys room. i haven't seen this play yard anywhere:

a gal at work told me there where in the back and i freaked. we only got 2 in. there are NO WHERE online. so after calling mom and explaining how liam needs this really bad, LOL, we went and got it yesterday. i soooo can't wait to set it up. i can't wait to decorate his room either!

last night he kicked and i felt it on the outside of my stomach! first time, well he did it a couple of weeks ago higher up on my stomach but last night i felt him move and put my hand down there, took awhile but he finally kicked. he stops kicking if you put your hand anywhere on my stomach. tricky little man!

ok...off to get ready for a short night at work. going to get some pancakes before work. i really need to grocery shop.
peace.

Today was awesome

The little man hasn't moved a lot. You basic fluttering. A poke here or there. I don't think he's much of a mover. But today he moved either a leg, arm, or perhap his body, from the lower part of my uterus and up. It was an awesome feeling. He's been moving quite a bit today. He mainly moves after work but today he was moving at work.

This is such a miracle. I am so happy!
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some flickr loving

1. Squirrel Pancake, 2. 246/365, 3. I Am Taaaaall, 4. Boogie Fever, 5. Untitled, 6. Heinz Hall Stairway, 7. YAWN, 8. Travelling without a destination, 9. pink daisy

now off to shampoo carpets. yay!!!

It's a boy!

Yeah, it took me a week to blog that its a boy. I am in shock and so happy. I wanted a girl but a boy is just as fine with me. I've already seen some sweet boy clothes at Babies R Us. Having a boy will be enjoyable. I think I can relate to them more.

When I was growing up I used to play with my neighbors, Dale and Ellen. I had to get a boys bike to ride around and through the ditch. I started playing with cars. My dad and brother used to race motorcycles, so we went to area tracks so they could race. When I was about 13 or so, maybe before, we'd go to MoKan and watch races. I did play with dolls and barbies but the majority of stuff was boy related.

We decided to name him Liam Jackson. I got Liam from Tori Spelling. Loved that name when I first heard it. We thought of other names but I always thought Liam was the best.

I can't wait for December to get here so we can see our little noy. He's already so loved by everyone.
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since i am putting off getting ready cuz i'm lazy...

here's some awesome photos from flickr that i am lovin today!

1. "We can learn a lot from trees: they're always grounded but never stop reaching heavenward" ~Everett Mámor, 2. London Eye at Night, 3. Skydiver, 4. HappyBirthDay (^) <:o), 5. Sad Boxer, 6. ♥, 7. I Love Converse, 8. tears for you, 9. (im)possible - 282/365

happy birthday to my awesome man!

tonight we are going out to eat with our parents. they are finally meeting! :) i've been sick with a bad head cold so we haven't done much of anything the last 3 days. i didn't get his present since we didn't work last night. ran a fever one night and got a bit freaked out. feeling better. basically just congested and a slight headache. i'm really tired of laying around and doing nothing but watching tv. i did watch the season premiere of project runway. so glad it is back. i usually have a favorite on the first show that i want to win but this season will be hard. i have a couple that i like. a lot of talent this season.

just 5 days till we find out what the little one is. can't wait to start calling it by it's name. i think we have decided on the names...think! i think i am more excited about making the cupcakes and telling people are work than anything. fun stuff!

not much new since i've been sick. wish i could get motivated to play with paper and stamps but just can't. i wonder if my desire for scrapbooking and card making is really gone? the new stamps i got in the stamp club are great and i love them, just no desire yet. hope it comes soon!
peace!

just a week to go

then we finally found out what we are having. i am not a patient person. this has been driving me nuts. i want to buy things and do but not a lot. more girl things actually. if it is a girl we are wanting the name payton reese. a boy liam...something. can't figure out a boys middle name yet.

i can't believe that when i found out in april that i wasn't really happy at all. i remember on mother's day we had a store meeting at work. during the meeting the manager said i was going to be a mom. i cringed. i wasn't excited. wasn't happy. i was tired. i wasn't on my meds. i felt like crap. once i started eating right and on my meds i felt a ton better. so, if i get pg again, i will stay on my meds and eat every couple of hours to keep my energy up. i didn't do that today though. only ate twice. not good. explains why i am tired but yet i am not ready for bed.

having a kid is scary. not just the birth process but paying for it afterwards. right now it is hard at times. i can't imagine what it will be like when its here. i want to be a better person so i can teach it the right way instead of a lot of things i am settled into. after 38 years here i have quite a bit experience but wish i did somethings a lot differently. i know that i will not let my kid be afraid of anything! maybe while i am teaching them that i can teach myself also.

so many things to do around the house to get ready for it. no energy on my days off. after working all week i just want to lay at home and veg. when is the nesting suppose to start cause it needs to be soon so i can get some stuff done :)

felt the baby move a lot today. one of thos days where i feel it a lot. tomorrow i am sure i won't feel it as much. that's how it goes right now. i'm just anxiously awaiting december and waiting for the next step of my life to start. here's to new beginnings!
peace!

wish i could sleep the whole night through

but my arms fall asleep all time. since i have to lay on my sides...so miss my stomach...my arms and hands fall asleep in no time. today i am up at 9:30am since i can't sleep. i get so comfortable and then the tingling starts again. so aggrivating!

what's in store for today? chilling around the house. i feel like we don't spend enough time at home. i feel we are always at work and then on our days off we run around town. we are going out to my parents for dinner. mom made this yummy peach cobbler that i have been thinking about since i had some last week. so we got to go out and get some more. yummy stuff!

here's a layout i did last night from speed scrap at Ginger Scraps:

i really like the speed scrapping. you never know what theywill want you to do. think i may try it again tonight if i am up to it!

peace!

speaking of cupcakes....

had to go to flickr to see some cupcakes to maybe get ideas. but nothing but a bit of icing on top of mine and maybe sprinkles...like i have the patiences to decorate cupcakes when i am wanting to tell everyone so bad :)

1. enchanted garden cupcakes, 2. Snowflake Cupcakes, 3. Baby Telia Rae Cupcakes, 4. Cow Cupcakes (almost finished), 5. It's A Girl Cupcakes, 6. coconut jewel cupcakes 1, 7. alice in wonderland cupcakes, 8. White & Gold Wedding Cupcakes, 9. christmas cupcakes

i'm half way there!

it's hard to believe that i am half way through this pregnancy. there are times where i still wonder if this is all real. it took me so long to get here. i am so happy each day i feel the little one more around. i can't wait till the 27th to see what it is. we are going to make cupcakes to take to work to announce what it is. the inside will either be blue or pink. gotta eat a cupcake if you want to know what it is :)

definately need to clean the house tonight. last week i didn't do anything but lay around. i kinda want to play with some stamps tonight. been a while since i made a card. i know once i get up and get motivated i will have energy, right now i just want to lay down and read or watch tv. i value my days off so much now. used to want to go out and do things. now i just want to stay at home and veg.

bought the first package of diapers the other day. need to buy more each payday or put money on a walmart card to buy them when she/he comes. bought four outfits for a buck each. i need to stop buying till we find out what it is. though i can take the stuff back, it's all girls stuff and well, what if is it a boy? lol

off to read and then clean.
peace!

a little photoshop time

spent some time going through the pictures i took last week and photoshopping them. i love photoshop cs! i am totally addicted to actions! can't get enough of them!

same picture different filter.....

we are so excited that my blood work for downs, spina bifida and the other thing that i can't remember lol...came back normal. so relieved and so happy! i'm trying to find some maternity clothes online. no luck. really expensive. i need a good pair to wear to work to support my belly. we bought a monitor to listen to the heart....we'll take it back. one thing, i am too early i think to hear anything from a $20 piece of equipment. another thing...there's a lot of fat for that thing to go through to find the heartbeat. so it will be going back. eric thinks he heard the heartbeat but i never did.

i was a bum all day yesterday. didn't do anything at home. house looks bad, well not too bad...but no energy. maybe today!

peace!

When everyone sleeps

I'm awake thinking and wondering. I put way too much thought into somethings. What if it does have down syndrome? I worry and wonder way before the tests are back. Why worry until something happens? He explained that it may come back abnormal simply due to my age.

I'm a bit scared. I want all to come out well. All I can do is give it to god.
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pictures from yesterday

i love how eric loves photography as much as i do. that he shares the passion along with me when we go out. we go out about twice a month to take pictures. yesterday i took 150. lots of great shots at the park with the ducks. i have only did 2 pictures in photoshop, the rest to come soon. so for right now here are a few of my favorites!

catching up....yet again

poor blog. just doesn't seem to get any action lately. i do have a ton going through my head but not sure what to put first. i do want to start writing more so i can remember this pregnancy. it may be my one and only the way things have been for the last 18 years. at times i am too afraid to write or get excited. i think there still is a tiny part of me that thinks something will happen. with the baby moving now i am reassured a lot but still wonder in the back of my head. i am so happy and excited that i just don't want anything to happen.

it's funny....before i was pregnant i would think that feeling the baby move or even knowing there was something growing in there would freak me out. i was like "i don't want something in my body." but now after feeling the flutters i love it and want more. it was nuts when i got my hair cut. i never felt it move that much, and still haven't, as to when i was sitting in the chair while she cut away.

today's dr appointment was short and sweet. heard the heartbeat...love that! he/she even kicked...awesome sound! they drew blood to test for down syndrome. i am a little nervous about that because of my age and not being able to get pregnant but only times in the last 28 years. not sure if that is a bad sign or what. not sure why i miscarried the last 3 times. 2 times i was barely along. ok....won't talk about those times. i just need to know that god will take care of us and the baby will be fine. no need to worry till something happens. but i know god is taking care of things and the baby will be heathly.

i told the dr about the spotting. he didn't seemed concerned. said as long as there isn't any cramping, never has been. my blood pressures was up but it is always up at the dr. so what i am going to do is take it each day and then print off for him to see that it is normal. that people with white coats and scarey equipment make it go up :).

i can't wait to found out so we can buy stuff and start planning and getting the baby's room ready. i am so blessed with all the support i have out there. my life is 100% complete now and the baby will add to it when it gets here. i don't think i could have done any of this 2 years ago when my life was different. god is wonderful. life is the best it has been in so many years. now to get to the traveling and then all would be friggin awesome!

yay, tony's first win

i almost told eric and tammy that if tony wins i will name my kid after him if it is a son. i was totally kidding and so glad i didn't say that lol. he was suppose to start in first but after he wrecked on saturday during practice he had to start at the back with a new car. didn't stop him. he kicked butt and came in first. what a man i tell ya!

all is well with baby and me. still a but nervous from time to time. the what if's and thinking about labor and what all is coming in the next few months. i know all will go very well but there is alwasy this stuff in the back of my mind that i think about. after hearing the heartbeat the miscarriage rate is like 1 to 3 %. so i need to concentrate on the 97 to 99% not the tiny chance of anything going wrong. i am doing a lot better on that though.

i know this is a keeper because i have had my share of heartache and i know god wants me to be a mom. i am much more healthier mentally and physcially than i was before. i have a lot to do to get ready mentally, like the agoraphobia, but knowing that the baby is on the way is making it a lot easier to do. i do need to work on things and will once i get the energy back. i want to be able to go to joplin to maternity stores and baby stores. there are a lot of things i want to do and will.