on new year's day this year i took a pregnancy test and it was positive. i thought it wouldn't have any problems since i had liam. two weeks later i was in the er confirming i had miscarried. by now i would have known if it was a boy or girl that would be arriving the first week of september. i wanted a sibling for liam. i didn't want him to grow up alone. i guess there is still time but after 4 losses i don't want to make it to 5.
liam is my everything. he is the joy of my life. the happiness that i needed after years of wishing for him. maybe one day i will get the courage to try again. but at 40 my changes of lossing another child goes up each year. so for right now i will enjoy this blonde hair, blue eyed little man!