looking back on 2009

this was the best year of my life. we started out the year thinking of our wedding. no, he hasn't asked yet. once he gets the ring he will...love layaway lol. i had bought a couple of things for it, candles at valentine's that would be great on a table. then at the end of april we found out i was pregnant. yes, i was scared at first. after 3 loses i didn't know how to think or feel. then in the first part of june we saw his heart beat and it was real and going to happen. it's been an exciting ride. no problems. no morning sickness. nothing. and now on the 31st my son is here and i am loving life. we have no plans for tonight to celebrate the new year and that is fine with me. all i ever wanted i have now so who needs to party when i am happy to be at home with my 2 guys!

i can only imagine what next year will bring. liam getting bigger. his first of everything will happen and i can't wait. though i want the time to go slow. i want to cherish each day with him. he is my miracle. thank you god for making 2009 the best year of my life.

and now some random pictures

now that all is updated, i will post daily if not every other day pictures and updates. one thing...he hates walmart. cries everytime we are there. he knows momma feels the same way and wishes she could cry there too...well when she is at work.

here's a picture of him in a cute little outfit:

mommy and dad were in ku sweatshirts today, so i had to put him in this:

hanging on to momma for dear life!

relaxed and snoozin!

his first dr appointment

his first appointment was yesterday the 29th., his due date actually. he is now up to 8lbs and almost 19 inches long. he looked a little yellow to the dr so she has blood drawn to check his beliruben (sp). all is good.  no problems. he is a healthy little man. here he is on the table waiting to be measured.

he does not like to be naked!

christmas day

we didn't go anywhere for christmas since the weather was bad. i didn't want to take a chance falling nor did i want to get him out in it. so we stayed home and relaxed. here he is in his outfit for the day:

little reindeer feet!

the day my life changed

yep...been a while since i posted. been busy with liam and enjoying being a mother. i hope i can update each day with things that are happening and pictures.

i'll never forget december 21st., 2009. the day my life changed. the day i finally became a mother. we went in at 8am to be induced. after 7 hours of pictocin i never onced dialated. so c-section it was. i though i would have to have one since he was still high and i was closed. but even though it is in the back of you mind, you don't know what it is like till it's time. from the time dr told me he was doing a c-section and liam was out, was within 30 mintues. i freaked out when they told me i would be recovering in icu. it was after 5 and the recovery room in the ob was closed. i panicked. freaked. eric was there through it all. he told the dr's to get him if i started getting bad again in the operating room. never. never has anyone done that. he held me and told me it would be ok. he demanded for them to go get him. he stayed by me as much as he could. i have never felt more safe with anyone as i did that day. my prince. god i love him more than life. it is important to me to have someone that understands and that will be there and not yell at me when i am anxious and panicking.

so the c-section got under way. the shot to deaden my back wasn't bad. the feel of your legs going numb...weird. they felt like they were getting sleepy, tingly weird feeling and then boom....they are as heavy as a log. i tried to wiggle my toes so i would know i could still move the and not panic but that didn't happen lol. i didn't feel anything but pressure. man, the feeling of them pulling and tugging, totally wild. it felt at times like they moved my bottom part of my abs to my chest. hard to discribe. then within minutes i heard the best sound in the world, his cry. i cried. i was afraid to cry too hard that i wouldn't be able to breathe lol. they walked him by as they took him to get cleaned up and such. to me he looked huge but it was the way they were holding him i guess bc he weight 7lbs 12.5 oz. 18 inches long. they brought him in for us to see and then eric took him to the nursery. i wish someone had a video camera and taped him walking to the nursery, i would have loved to see that.

i went up to icu and an hour later came back down and was finally able to get a good look at liam. i got a half look before they took me up. he is so beautiful. my little boy. the one i prayed about and wished for, for so many years was finally here in my arms. that night we had him stay in the nursery since we were so worn out. by 8am i was up and ready to see him.

the c-section wasn't bad at all. the first night was rough getting around but i'm strong and a fighter and 9 days after all is great and yes, i would do it again! i am so happy that he is here and finally with us. the 9 months did go by fast. only at the end did i want it over with. i got tired of not being able to do things and hated relying on eric for a lot, ex...putting on shoes and socks.

some pictures of the day:
momma holding him.

grandma tilley

3 generations!

grandma robson

flower from my dr.

grandpa robson

liam's cousins: sierra and brianna

my nurses and goals for the day....love the cuddle baby!

our stork dinner

going home! (i was so tired. slept maybe an hour) i was so ready to go home.

and now to enjoy life with my men!

christmas trees and ornaments

i am hoping we can get the tree up with all we need to do. so hopefully this will inspire me lol. love the look on the cat's face in the lower picture.

1. christmas tree., 2. the pink christmas tree! , 3. Baby christmas tree, 4. christmas tree, 5. Day 337 - white christmas (tree), 6. christmas tree, 7. CHRISTMAS TREES 2008, 8. christmas tree 078, 9. day51 - "OH CHRISTMAS TREE", 10. Danya's first indoor christmas tree, 11. christmas tree..., 12. christmas_tree

2 days to go

and i am still sick. head cold and a cough. had it. i have so much to do around here, i don't have time for a cold. i'm off work till feb 9th. yay!!!! i had mixed emotions last night basically because i realized that there are just 2 days left. reality hit and i was like OMG. but i am happy to be off work and not deal with any more customers this holiday season as an employee. we have to go in tomorrow to get stuff for the hospital. i got a robe i wanted from my secret santa. now to find a cute night gown to wear. i would like to wear pants but can you after you have given birth? do they check you a lot? i feel like he has moved down more. i am anxious to see if i am dialated yet. i hope i go in at least 1cm dialated.

tonight's plans: get his room finished. tomorrow night put together things like the swing, bouncer and stroller. today the plan is to find place for the rest of these boxes and stuff. i didn't realize how small the house his till we got started with his room. i am definately having a rummage sale come spring time. ohhhh yeah!!!!!

getting nervous about monday. not sure what all will happen. though no one knows. every delivery is different. i pray every night for a fast, smooth, painless as possible delivery. you know, i can't believe i have not had an ounce of any kind of trouble. no high blood pressure. no gd. nothing. so blessed and know god had a huge hand in that. i am a true testimony to what god can and will do. prayer....you must do it and you must believe it will be heard.

wish i could predict the future!

or at least liam's birth. after today's appointment i am a bit nervous since he is still high, yet the dr can feel his head. he told me to keep a c-section in the back of my head. i don't want to go through hours of seeing if i will dialate but if that what we have to do that's what we have to do. i think was bothers me the most is that i have NO control over anything that happens and that doesn't make me a happy woman lol. i am a control freak. i want it this way or no other way. but i have to give that up and have faith in the nurses and dr as they know way much more than i do. i mean years of discovery health doesn't qualify you for anything but time spent on the tv :)

his room is almost done. yes, we are still working on it. it will be done when he comes home that is for sure. we both put things off till the last moment. i didn't' have a dr for liam till i went in on monday and talked to the people at community health. we will meet the dr on thursday. i've always waited till the last minute to do anything. i work better that way. just how i am and probably how i will be.

can't wait till monday is here and we can get the ball rolling for him to arrive. i'm always anxious and my mind goes nuts when i am expecting something huge. i do it for a week or so. the what if's and such. now it is like "i need to have the house spotless. i need to do this...need to do that." tiring i tell ya. we have a small house so until we find a place to put a lot of this stuff, the dining room and garage will be packed. we were really looking forward to the city wide clean up but they didn't have one in october like they used to. i'm sure we'll hit them up in the spring though!

i'm trying not to freak out and just remain calm. the last thing i want is to panic and since i can't have my meds for a panic attack, i need to remain calm. this is teaching me what i need to do anyways. i can't and shouldn't rely on a medicine to make me feel what i need to feel. it is up to me.

decorating

so i wanted to decorate the house for christmas since liam will be here. but there is so much to do as it is that i will be lucky to get the tree up. still a lot i want to do around here. i don't want the house to be cluttered when people come over but i guess it will have to be. boxes mainly. don't know where to put a lot of this stuff. it's only going to get worse as liam gets older so must decide what to do with it. maybe in the spring i will have a massive rummage sale. maybe i will give a lot of my scrapbook stuff to eric's family that scraps (well that will probably happen since i have a ton more in the back room that needs to gone through.). i hoard my scrapbook stuff, yes i admit it. i don't like using things because "hey, what if there is something better to scrap later?" that theory has to go down the drain. i have a ton of stuff behind me that needs to be used....a few draws that need to be gone through as well. so i will use the cool stuff now cause it stresses me out seeing all of this with no place to go. and not to mention i had to "buy it" so it needs to be used.

back to decorating. i need to find a cute "baby's 1st christmas" ornament. i'll try hallmark. saw a lot of cute ones there. eric's mom has an ornament for him already. i told eric that i want to get him one each year from hallmark. i want to start some traditions this year. not sure what all we can do with a newborn, but we can start with an ornament. next year i will get lights on the house and decorate inside. too much going on right now to put time into that when the time can be spent on what really needs to be done...his room. we're almost there. we're last minute people what can i say? :)

too high!

today's 37th week appointment was awesome. it was awesome to see him on the sonogram. we got to see him wave. he is really high up, highest the dr has ever seen. that's my boy! so that puts me in a high rate of having a c-section. i haven't dialated. cervix is still high but soft. he thinks i could go at any time. baby is measuring about 8.5lbs from the sonogram but dr thinks he is around 7.5lbs. so i hope the little man can fit into some of his newborn clothes before he grows completely out of them :) to tell you the truth, i think i would rather have a c-section rather than wait for hours to see if i will progress or not. sounds crazy i know, but i would rather him just schedule the c-section then get me in there, pictocin going, get to maybe 3 cm and then nothing. waste of time to me. i know it is major surgery and recovery time but if he is so high up why take the chance?

i'm am a bit surprised at myself, as i am sure other are too, that i am not freaking out and panicking right now...actually throughout the whole pregnancy. i worried about everything and i have some during this pregnancy which is normal, but there is a peace that i have had for so long that i don't really fear that much. the only thing that i really fear is freaking out and panicking if i have a c-section and being not able to move while they are getting him out. not too keen on the whole epidural numbing you towhere you can't move your legs but i would rather have that then the pain. but the c-section will feel worse since i hear it is a spinal. a walking epidural would be fabulous but i'm pretty sure you can't have one with a c-section. however he has to come out is fine with me. i just want him to be here and to start experiencing life as a mother.

i did a couple of layouts the other night.

now i think i will complete these downloads and maybe do a layout. tired today after a busy, exciting day.

feeling christmasy

hense the new background change! love hearing the christmas music like ever before. makes me even more excited for christmas to come this year since liam will be here. i want to go out and look at lights but when it is cold outside it is hard to get up and go outside.

last night i went to the hospital. i thought i was having contractions and i was. however, they were mild and i still haven't dialated yet sooo. at least now i know what contractions feel like. i have wondered a while now what they feel like. i was running a slight fever too. not sure what they was fun. so after being hooked up to the monitor, i went home feeling kinda dumb. i'm sure i am not the only person going up there thinking something is going on. i didn't think i was in labor but i didn't know what these feeling were. i freaked eric out. i called him and said "i think maybe we should go to the hopital. they are 11 minutes apart." and be the time we get there they stop. i had small ones but nothing else. the nurse said i will be experiencing them till i deliever. she told me what to look for and when to call or come in. a feel better knowing that.

tomorrow we go to the dr for my 37th week checkup. he will check to see if i am dialate...highly doubt i will in 48 hours lol and do a sonogram to see how he is positioned. i can't wait to see him. if he said "let's do this tomorrow" as in delivering, i would have no problem with that. i am tired and being tired and no energy to do anything. house is a mess. a lot i want to do but no energy to do anything. where's that nesting thing and when will it kick in? lol

the beginning of my 25 days of Christmas album

I'm not sure if I will be able to finish it after the 21st when he gets here, but it is still fun to work on. Hopefully I will be able to. If I write down some ideas then all I have to do it do it. Are are days 1 and 2. 3 will come tonight after I work on his room.

Lots of fun. These are made from freebies, where....I can't remember. Ok...now to clean then back to day 3!

the best christmas present ever is coming

on december 21st! went to the dr today to see about this swelling I have been having. my feet were swelling off and on then my hands started. dr told me to come in if my face was swollen but my hands....they were huge so i called and they had me come in today. everything looks great. he doesn't think i have preclampsia since my blood pressure is fine and i lost a pound. i asked him if he thought the baby would be here before christmas and he said yes and what day was i thinking? for some reason i wanted the 20th all along but since it is on a sunday i said the 21st. so he called the hospital and got it set up. he said since it is that time of year alot of women will want to be induced because they won't want to be in the hospital on christmas. the hospital only allows 2 inductions a day so we better get me on the list now before it fills up.

i am totally excited and can't wait. it is going to be the best christmas ever. today we will get the rest of his room done and hopefully paint on thursday. sometime soon i want to get the tree up and decorate it but not sure where we will put it. still a lot to do in the house but as long as the room gets done that is all i care about. the rest can come later. it isn't that bad just need to move a few things around and get rid of boxes.

i'm going to make the 18th my last day at work. that will give me a full paycheck and two days off to relax and prepare for the 21st. now that i know when he will be here, i will be able to work a little better knowing i have x amount of days to go. hope it helps because i need something to get me by on those 8 hour days!

going to start on my 25 days of christmas album that i started last year and didn't finish. i got the book done but nothing it in. i am soooo freaking happy he will be here for christmas!

30 days

one month till he is here. i'm excited for the 8th's appointment to see how he is laying. that day i will ask the dr when we can hopefully expect him to be here. i'm getting more excited each day. i can't believe how fast all of this went. it seems like yesterday we were announcing i was pregnant. once he gets here if time can slow just a bit while i am off to soak in all of the newness!

the count down has started!

31 days????

yesterday wasn't a good day for me emotionally. i kept it in but not sure how. i wanted to cry on the way to mazzios to eat. wanted to cry at work. i was really tired since i was up a lot going to the bathroom. i didn't let myself cry though. i try to knock as much off my mind as possible. if i don't then fear comes in and makes it hell in my life. since i can't have any klonopin if i have a panic attack, i get my mind off of it so i don't panic. a really good thing about this, it is teaching me to let things roll off my back and not panic. i would like to be off of meds but i know that isn't possible. i can't believe it's been since may that i have taken a klonopin. i have taught myself that i can do this without that med. now for the lexapro...i need that or the depression will kick back in.

had a great thanksgiving. got totally stuffed as usual and ate way too much. i thought a lot while we were all together how great it would be if liam would be here for christmas. when i go to the dr on the 8th i'll ask him about it...see if he thinks he may be here before then. i hope so and definately by the end of the year for the tax break we desperately need :)

very thankful

today i am very thankful for a lot of things in my life.
*in a few short weeks i will be a mother.
*eric for changing my life.
*for god bringing me eric and saving me from only he knows what could have happened.
*friends. without them i would be lost and scared. they bring me good advice and happiness.
*family. having great set of parents and family makes my life complete.
*a job that allowed me to meet new friends and find old ones.

there's so much more...the little things we don't really realize each day: sunsets, the sky, warm weather, the internet, food, clothing, art, expressing yourself.

life is wonderful. i am cherishing each day...even if i can't walk that well and my ankles are swollen :)

do not open till

i can't find a digital kit with "do not open till december 25th" in it. so i made this layout and just went with it. changed the 25th to 29th. i think he will be early though ;0

now to work on another layout before we head to lunch then work. short shift...love them!

a good dr appointment

yesterday's appointment went good. i am retaining a little water. gained 6lbs...probably the water. i haven't drank as much as i should lately and believe me i will be now! in 2 weeks i get a sonogram to see how he is positioned. i am getting nervous now. it is getting closer every day. i am hoping the nesting takes place soon so i can get some energy to do more than just a little bit around here. the washer went out, sucks, hopefully it won't be much to fix. who knows! i'm not too worried about his room. we just need to clear the area out in the dining room for my scrap stuff and then we will start moving things out and then paint. really isn't that much stuff, just a lot of containers.

can't wait till thanksgiving. he will be here next thanksgiving...can't wait! i really do hope he is here for christmas. i believe god blesses us in ways we never really think is a total blessing till we look at it and believe. i used to love the holidays. the trees. lights. gifts. then my ex got me into the blah humbug of it. he always moaned about how he hated it all. stopped helping me put up the tree, etc. after a few years i just gave up and said screw it. he said he never liked the holidays once his dad died. i am sure that does affect someone but it was like he never made an effort to enjoy it with me. now i can have what i always dreamed about. i have a great boyfriend, whom i will marry next year. his family is awesome. we want the same dreams. we fit so much better. now i will have my holidays back. love it! we can't afford a lot for christmas this year but to me any more it isn't about gifts, it is about family and enjoying the seaon with them. from thanksgiving to christmas it is a time to spend with loved ones and friends. throughout the year it is so hard to meet up so it is important to during the holidays. i would rather have 2 hours with my family then something that will sit around the house, be used a few times and then left alone. i have learned over the years that it is quality of time we spend together. i hope to teach liam that this isn't about gifts, its about giving. giving our love to our family. giving our hearts to people that need it. giving back to the ones that helped us. it dosen't have to be much, just let them know that you appreciate them and what they mean to you.

i am so thankful for my changing life and what is going to come. i can't believe how this last year has changed my life for the better. sometimes we have to put up with the crap for a while to get a very happy ending. i am so ready to see what else will be happening when liam arrives. god is awesome.

i love freebies

I found so many over at Oscraps. I can't wait to work with them. They have some great designers over there too. I want to buy some kits and make some things. I would like to do Cheryl's challenges today but not going to be able to. She has lots of fun challenges for today. Guess I can work on them a little at a time. I love challenges. They really help you get out of that funk you're in when you don't know what to use or scrap!

I got my leave of absense papers for work. I need to have the dr fill his part out and then we are good to go for when Liam decides to arrive. I wish I was getting a sonogram on Tuesday but it just a normal visit.

Top 5 reasons why I am looking forward to being a mother.
1. The delivery. Though it scares the heck out of me, I am really looking forward to giving birth and seeing his face for the first time.
2. To finally be in the club of all clubs. To finally understand what people are talking about when they say it is a love you will never know.
3. To have something that is a part of me.
4. To watch him grow. I know it will go so fast so I will have my camera handy and remember each day for the rest of my life.
5. To hold him in my arms and cuddle. To smell him.

The best part of my life is happening in a little over a month and I am totally ready for it!

still a kickin

man how time has flown just since the shower! i can't believe there is less than 6 weeks to go. i am totally ready. i am ready to have my body back for one. it's hard to work with no energy and not able to fully bend over. i am so thankful for everyone at work that is patient and understanding. i hate complaining about anything related to pregnancy since this is our miracle but yeah...i am pooped and ready to pop!

i've been thinking once again if i should get rid of all my paper stuff and just digital scrapbook. digital is more economical, less space, and no waste. i was thinking the other day that paper stuff i just so expensive. if you want a new line of papers, and such, it can cost soooo much money just for a few things. i can buy kits and print my layouts off for less money. so then it got me to thinking...should i try out for some design teams???? i think i might venture off to some sites and see who is looking for what. i miss the dt days. if i have been thinking about not paper scrapping for so long, then maybe it is a sign to just do digital and save space and money.

i got to thinking

I hope Liam is born before Christmas. This would be my first Christmas as a mother and our first Christmas as a family if he came on time. If not it will be next year but this year would  be awesome! I can't believe in a few short weeks we will be a family. My life will be complete...well when Eric and I get married then it will. But Liam being here will make it the best time of my life.

I am going to decorate the house and put the tree up. We will get him a few presents for one of us to open once he is here. I know he won't have a clue as to what is going on but we will. Next holiday season will be wonderful. I once dreaded the holidays but now my favorite time of the year is back and I am so happy!

5 things i would love

I got this idea from here. I want to start doing this more since it was really fun and opened my eyes up to things. Thanks so much Lain...notice the capitals? :)

1. Have a clean, spotless house.

I am so not one to clean. I hate it. Well once it is clean i love the way it looks. Just wish some people would help me to keep it that way lol. I am going to try my hardest when Liam arrives to keep it clean, especially since people will be coming over. It will take a lot of work getting there, since I need to throw so much away, but it will be worth it in the long run!

2. Stay at home mom.

Nothing would make me more happen then to stay at home and tend to house work and Liam. But since I can't, it will be a dream to have for now.

3. Financially secure

One thing I hate the most is having to worry about money. What can we pay this paycheck, what can wait. I'd love for one day to sit down and write out checks for bills without any worries.

4. To be a great cook.

I love to cook but with my tiny kitchen it is so hard to do. It's a challenge sometimes to just make 3 things that are simple for dinner. No space makes it so hard. I would like to learn new recipes. I get tired of fixing the samethings a lot. My oven needs the themometer fixed. Till then I can't bake anything because the tempature will rise so fast. You have to babysit it just to make a pizza.

5. Travel

Now that life is great, I want to be able to pick up and go to Coffeyville on our days off. Go to Joplin to shop. Go to KC to a concert. Things a normal person can do but an agroaphobic can't. Yeah, it sucks but I hope to one day do these all again.

what's happening around here???

almost 6 weeks left till the little man is due to arrive. i'm trying not to complain about things. the house. his room not being done. being really tired. having to work. i am very thankful for all that is going on. if i was pregnancy years before this, i won't have the support that i do now. god knows what he is doing. i pray nearly every night for a healthy pregnancy. for a fast, smooth, painless as possible delivery. so far all has been answered. i truly believe he is a gift from god. i know god believes it is time for me to start living a life i was meant to live. i was in a marriage where i wasn't happy at all. the only thing that made me happy was shopping and buying things that made me happy for a moment. i was tired of it for so many years but too afraid to do anything due to my anxiety disorder.

one thing i have learned from this pregnancy is to watch my thinking. i haven't thought too much about the negative of what may happen. now i did at first because of my history of loses. but now i try not to think about everything. i try to stay positive. even if the house is crap. his room isn't done. etc. there is only so much i can do and i do what i can with the energy i have. at times i want to cry but i don't. i focus on something else. i feel this is a gift from god so i feel guilty if i complain.

my next appointment is the tues before thanksgiving. then in 2 weeks we get a sonogram to see where he is positioned. i hope he is head done. i feel he is. then after that appointment is one week then another week....that last week is dec 22nd! i can't believe how fast this is going. eric did promise me that it all will be done by then. i sure hope so. i am ready to decorate his room and get the crib set up. like i have said a million times...i can't wait till he is here!

what a shower

i had a great time on saturday meeting new family members of eric's i've never met and being around friends. i got a lot of great goodies, well liam did, so we are ready for him to arrive....well kinda. lol. the lazy, too tired to do anything, is putting off doing anything still. i need to get crates to put my scrapbook stuff in or maybe just some boxes from work. i am so ready anxious to work on his room just not anxious enough to fight the tiredness.
here are some pics from the shower. eric took a few before he sat with me to open presents. his mom took a lot, can't wait to see them.

my mom made the cake.

a partial amount of the gifts. this was taken before everyone arrived.

eric's grandma, my mom, me sitting with the gals from work (stephanie, ashley and kristin) him mom and sister.

we played a game called "bun in the oven" everytime someone said baby we had to pass the cinnoman buns.

and me 8 months preggo's, taken before we left for the shower.

thank you so much aimee for putting this together for me. i had a great time. i was so glad that carla was able to make it down. next step on this pregnancy ride, a baby. now the count down!

another day at the park

i love going to the park and taking pictures. the ducks and geese crack me up. i can't wait till we can take liam to the park.
here are some of the photos i took today. i wish i could have gotten out sooner before all the leaves fell off. oh well.

that is it for this post. feeling blah tonight. think i will just to to sleep and dream of my baby and eric.

8 months

i can not believe that i am 8 months pregnant. it is so hard to believe at times that i will soon be a mother. i know i say that a lot but it is true. i can't believe it at times. the years i tried and longed for a baby is finally here. god is great. i pray every night for him to watch over liam and this pregnancy and he has. what would i do without him?

i did this layout the other day about water. dr says i need to drink more and i try my hardest to get atleast 60oz a day in, sometimes 80 if i'm lucky. i don't drink tea that much any more. i am having one now and i'm loving it.

i had a short night tonight ato work so i think i will finish up the guestbook for the baby shower this saturday. omg time is going by so fast. he will be here before i know it.

a little something for liam's room

i'm going to print this off and hang it in his room.

1. Vintage LEGO Letter L, 2. Ozarkland: L, 3. The Letter L, 4. ..{ L is For ‘‘ Love ’’ ..♥.., 5. letter L, 6. City Carpet Letter L, 7. letter L, 8. Custom 7 inch "L", 9. Go to L, 10. L is for LOSER, 11. L-etter, 12. The letter L, 13. The letter L, 14. L, 15. L, 16. L, 17. L, 18. blue and yellow felt initial L ornament, 19. L, 20. "L" Bleekers Bowl ~ Evergreen Park, IL.

off to do a digital page or two and then get ready for class tonight. going to learn how to breath!

what a fun halloween

last year i wanted to dress up but couldn't. we didn't work that day due to a gas leak in the gas pipes. so this year i wanted to do something. i didn't want to be a witch, though there were some cool costumes. plus, with this pregnant belly what is going to fit? so i opted for this.....a tony stewart fan.
my face at the beginning:

in the car on the way to work:

and then at work. the sign on my stomach says "future tony stewart fan inside"

i know he isn't #20 any more but i have more 20 stuff than 14. only one person commented on that. had fun and that is all that mattered. by the end of the night i was so ready for that hat to come off. i almost hit eric and another guy in the head with the flag, kept forgetting i had it, well that it was that long.

now to find some digital halloween papers to make a layout!

happy halloween

i'm a bit excited to go to work tonight and see what people are dressed up like. i am going as a nascar fan. don't have the extra cash for costumes. i feel bad that eric won't be dressing up. last year we said we would and then well....got pregnant and needed money. life. love it! i really do!

got a bit of a cold, sucks. head is stuffy and a bit of a scratchy throat. yesterday i felt liam having hiccups for the first time. i text a couple of people to see if that is what i was feeling. they would come every 4 seconds and felt like a little thump. so awesome. man, i can't wait till he is here. it is going to be a blast!

now to get ready for work. i don't go in till 6 so i am going to hastings to read a bit and drink some hot chocolate for my throat.
peace!

birthing class 1001

last night was the first night of birthing class. we watched a video of 4 different births. she taught us about car seats. we toured the labor and delivery. there were 15 couples there. 3 out of 15 were having girls, the rest boys. well there was one couple that decided not to find out. i don't know how someone waits that long but more power to them lol. after touring L and D, i feel a lot more at ease about delivery. i know what the rooms are like. what they will do once we get there. what happens when it is time. we saw the c-section room. glad it is up there in l and d and not downstairs! while watching the video i realized how beautiful and amazing childbirth really is. i didn't want to have the mirror to see but  now i do. i hope eric looks too. i don't want to miss seeing him come out as much as i can.

i really want to make this album. it is so adorable. i don't want to stick to just blues. in fact the guestbook that i am making for the shower has a brown and a green flower on it. just cause i am having a boy doesn't mean i will stick to all blues...that will get so boring after a while.

didn't drink much water yesterday so i will be sure to do that today. sometimes water just isnt that great but must drink it!

2 more digital layouts

i love michelle underwood. at her blog she had some freebies, so i took advantage of them. :) i wish i would have signed up for try to be on her design team but i haven't scrapped for so long and there are so many more better than me, so i didn't. she is an awesome designer!

we wanted to drive around and take pictures of the trees but it is rainy and cold. cold wouldn't have bothered me but the rain, can't get good pics. maybe on thursday our next day off. tonight is the first night of childbirth class. i am excited and a bit nervous. it will be fun i'm sure. the videoes are hear are about 20 years old and a bit scarey. maybe i will see if i can reserve my epidural :)  hey, doesn't hurt to be 2 months ahead on planning that. lol. i know they won't be still, i want to make sure there is no pain. we're ready for our little man to arrive. it's going to be an awesome ride!

ideas for me???

have you been to http://www.writeclickscrapbook.com/? i posted a few days ago if they had any ideas for a baby's room, today they do and for me! i have gotten so many ideas from this site, it rocks! a lot of simple scrapbook gals that i love (totally miss that magazine). now to get things does around the house to move my scrapbook room and get liam's room ready. thing is, i like to do things and not wait. i want to be able to start and finish everything in a day. impossible i know, especially being a tire pregnant gal. but i think that is one reason why i am putting off doing it. i want it done and now. need to get that out of my head and just do it! we are going to start this week so by the time the shower comes his room will be cleared out and we can start to paint. i'd like to have it all done by dec 1st., a reasonable, close amount of time.

slept 10+ hours so i feel refreshed. another long day at work, short one tomorrow and long on monday. wondering how much longer i can do 8 hour days???? i'll do it till i can't any more!

insomnia

the last 3 nights i have had insomnia. aimee swears it is god getting me ready for when liam gets here and the lack of sleep i will have. it probably is true. i thought i would be so tired at work tonight but i wasn't. i didn't get to sleep till 5am and had to get up at 9 to watch noah. feeling tired now so hopefully i won't be up late.

liam has been really active at night, ironically the nights with insomnia. i think he is turning. i haven't felt much of anything in my ab area, just in my gut. i think he is/was across my stomach instead of up and town. i am feeling more in my abs so i think he is turning or his arms and legs got a lot longer lol.

can't wait for the shower in 2 weeks. birthing classes start on tuesday. it is getting close and i can't wait. it's going to be one heck of a ride! bring it! :)

3 cards i made

didn't know if it was going to come or not but creativity arrived. yay for me!

off to relax and then head to bed. 9am comes too early any more lol